My UnSutured Life

hehehe… sarap magtrip…

kagabi nanood kami ng mga orgmates ko ng Sex and Zen I…hahaha…it was funny, but the way the film was cut was soooooo bad… Hindi na namin nakuha nang buong-buo ang takbo ng kuwento… dapat half-price lang binayaran namin…hehehe…

Pagkatapos ng pelikula, dapat ay magsisikain kami kaya lang naisipan namin na magsiuwi na…dapat ganoon nga pero sa arcade kami nauwi nina care, kirk at adan…hehehe… ang saya magsayang ng pera on fun…minsan lang naman… hehehe… Anyway na-enjoy naman namin ang TAIKO…hehehe…

After that, umuwi na kami…sa MOnumento kami dumaan ni care…at habang naglalakad kami, napagkuwentuhan namin ang mga bagay-bagay…tapos nakita namin yung mga cart ng street food, specifically cart ng lugaw at mami…napagtripan namin na kumain doon. ANG SAYA! Sobrang naenjoy namin…kasi bihira na kami kumain sa mga ganoong lugar talaga…

*badtrip talaga ako kahapon, but thanks to my friends I enjoyed the day.

nanood ako with my two batchmates ng concert ng BSB. hehehe… Supposedly ay for closure ang panonood namin, pero mukhang naressurect ang mga panahong maka-BSB o boy band kami…wahehehe… Anyway, we enjoyed everything and that day will surely be unforgettable.

Napadaan lang ako sa aking friendster blog. Wala lang. May naalala lang ako. Sabi ng kaibigan ko huwag na daw mun akao mag-expect. Dami kasing circumstances na hindi ba malinaw sa aking buhay. Tama siya, alam kong tama siya. Pero minsan di mo rin maiwasan na mag-isip kung ano ang mga pwedeng mangyari. Kaya mula ngayon di na ako mag-eexpect ng sobra-sobra. Siguro, I’ll just hope everything would be OK, nothing more and nothing less.

I should be sleeping right now, but I can’t seem to close my eyes.

I should be sleeping right now, but I can’t seem to lie down.

I should be sleeping right now…

My eyes are swollen from lack of proper sleep.

My head is aching from stress.

My stomach is growling form hunger.

I should just sleep and forget (even for just some hours) about things.

***inspired by the fact that we are going to report on Tuesday and pass a PR plan for a class.

I like the message of this song. I really cannot explain why or to what extent it reached me. But Tulog ka na of Sugarfree brings a calm air with it when I hear it.

Tulog na mahal ko
Hayaan na muna natin ang mundong ito
Lika na, tulog na tayo.
Tulog na mahal ko
Wag kang lumuha, malambot ang iyong kama
Saka na mamroblema

Tulog na hayaan na muna natin sila
Mamaya, hindi ka na nila kaya pang saktan
Kung matulog, matulog ka na…

Tulog na mahal ko
Nandito lang akong bahala sa iyo
Sige na, tulog na muna
Tulog na mahal ko
At baka bukas ngingiti ka sa wakas
At sabay natin haharapin ang mundo

Aulog na hayaan na muna natin sila
Mamaya, hindi ka na nila kaya pang saktan
Kung matulog, matulog ka na…

Hanggang makatulog ka

shet! I know it is improper to curse, but this is what I feel right now.

Many things have been on my mind lately–school, work, politics, love. And these have been putting me into a sad, shit state.

School and politics–I don’t know how to juggle them most of the time. I’m an acad person. And I promised myself and my family that I would maintain my grades. This, I am planning to fulfill. But, with this I sometimes cannot comply with our duty to as members of an organization that fights for students’ right. I can’t go on rallies because I have a class and my father told me not to go on any. Yet, despite my incomplaince, I know in my heart that I want to uphold what is right for the students and for the masses.

Let me talk about politics again. This is just a thought I can’t get out of my mind: Why do people find a hard time to unite when they all know that what they want is for the students? I do not wish that they be united all the time, that they agree all the time. BUT, for once, why can’t they? The recent assembly was held to make sure that the students would be properly represented in the board, but what did people do? Instead of upholding the essence of the assembly, they were fighting for what they deem good for their own political parties. DISAPPOINTING–that is what I felt when I heard the news. If we do not approve of what is happening in Congress, then why are we replicating it on our own assemblies–frustrating.

LOVE. Hay, confusing. I think I’m falling in love with someone I did not expect. I do not know if he does like me, although he says he does. It hurts to think he is just playing games with me. I don’t know what to think anymore.

My life is not perfect. It is unsutured. And these are just some of the reasons.

Just wanna share a thought or  a group of thoughts (if there was such).

LOVE ain’t absolute or obsolete, that is what I have learned. Yes, you can chose who to love or  you can love someone. But loving someone is not simple, it has its consequences. SOMETIMES, the person you love does love you, but there are obstacles. SOMETIMES, he/she does not love you, or is playing games with you.

DO I MAKE ANY SENSE? I just want to remind everybody that loving someone ain’t easy as counting 1,2,3.

hu cares about break-ups?

oo nga, masakit sa puso

pro tandaan mo, a break-up isn’t only an end to a relationship

it’s d beginning of a new 1 and end 2 a living hell called "Ex."

***

pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo,

wag mo siang sisihin,

kausapin mo cia nang harap-harapan,

ngumiti ka sa kanya at sabihin mong…

"Ingat ka…"

"tanga ka pa naman!"

Describe Melai.

Haggard. Period. Yan ang isasagot sa inyo ng mga orgmates ko.

Suplada. Yan naman ng mga bumibili sa tindahan namin.

Mabait. friendly. Yan mula sa mga kaklase ko noong elementary.

Pinlakkkk. Yan sa mga highschool friends and classmates ko.

"Genius." Yan sa mga feeling napakatalin ko (nyek! ‘di true).

"Ok lang." Yan mula sa mga ‘di ko kaclose pero acquintance ko.

Kumplikado. DITO, dito kayo maniwala. Isa akong kumplikadong tao. Ito ang nakikita ko sa sarili ko.

Another sleepless night.

A long forgotten memory creeps to my mind.

A shattered dream suddenly remembered.

Who would have thought it was never meant,

For HIM and me to be together.