DAMN
Wednesday, November 16th, 2005shet! I know it is improper to curse, but this is what I feel right now.
Many things have been on my mind lately–school, work, politics, love. And these have been putting me into a sad, shit state.
School and politics–I don’t know how to juggle them most of the time. I’m an acad person. And I promised myself and my family that I would maintain my grades. This, I am planning to fulfill. But, with this I sometimes cannot comply with our duty to as members of an organization that fights for students’ right. I can’t go on rallies because I have a class and my father told me not to go on any. Yet, despite my incomplaince, I know in my heart that I want to uphold what is right for the students and for the masses.
Let me talk about politics again. This is just a thought I can’t get out of my mind: Why do people find a hard time to unite when they all know that what they want is for the students? I do not wish that they be united all the time, that they agree all the time. BUT, for once, why can’t they? The recent assembly was held to make sure that the students would be properly represented in the board, but what did people do? Instead of upholding the essence of the assembly, they were fighting for what they deem good for their own political parties. DISAPPOINTING–that is what I felt when I heard the news. If we do not approve of what is happening in Congress, then why are we replicating it on our own assemblies–frustrating.
LOVE. Hay, confusing. I think I’m falling in love with someone I did not expect. I do not know if he does like me, although he says he does. It hurts to think he is just playing games with me. I don’t know what to think anymore.
My life is not perfect. It is unsutured. And these are just some of the reasons.
